God has been good to us. He really has. When we get into our house it will be awesome, and I know this. We are getting a rockin' deal; space to spread ourselves a bit. This two or three month trial will make it all the more worth it, I know this. Just as I know this has to be what God wants. I am giving Him the glory. It has been a trial and I haven't always been cheerful and full of patience. We all know patience is not my strong suit anyway. I am trying, but fail. Please Brother Randy; please know that I am trying hard to be full of faith. I am. I am trying very hard to wait upon the Lord in all things. I am not without hope, God is my hope.... I just really, really wish He worked in my timing!
So I struggle with this aspect of my Christian walk. I struggle with waiting for God to work. The minute I think I have learned and I am doing ok, God says "let's see if you really are at a place where you can pat yourself on the back...."
Wake up call time.... I have not arrived yet, so I can get off my high horse or be bucked off. I am still a struggling sinner.
My heart is tired. I am weary. I am tired of waiting, and this is my problem. I lack patience and this is my greatest fault. I lack patience to wait upon God and to wait for Him to work. I am tired and unable to do this, and am now where I have no where else to turn but to the embrace of God, but its hard to humble myself. I am in need of the prayers of other Christians. I have too much pride, and God is trying to teach me that my pride will keep getting in my way until I turn it over to Him.
Thank you for hanging with me.