I am

I am learning, always learning. 

God gives us the capacity to continue our learning daily even when we're old.  I kinda doubt I will ever be wise, but I am getting smarter about some stuff.  Mostly about me and how I work. 

I hope none of you think I sugar coat and make our life seem like an idyllic paradise where all things good and joyful preside.  I know I don't share all the melt downs, all the days we don't get dishes done or laundry is piled to the towel bar in the bathroom, but I try to keep it real.  I am pretty open about things I am learning while tending this garden God has blessed me with.  I have the power to use that blessing for good and to make it the most it can be or I have the power to dwell on any negative thought or thing that happens.  I want to think and ponder the good that is and can be (even from a not so good situation). 

This is my journal, I write mostly for my daughter, occasionally I will write about something important that I want off my chest or I feel would great benefit others, but mostly I want Bear to see her Mommy thought her life was pretty blessed.  I choose to not dwell on the negative on the blog.  Occasionally I will share a struggle.  This is all said because I want YOU to know .....   

LIFE IS HARD.  Yep, no one ever said it would be easy.  I don't think we'd really want it to be easy, do we?  I try to keep it real on Garden Tenders, but no, I will not share every stress filled, self loathing, agonizing, fearful, thoughtless, ----you get the drift-- thing that happens.  There are other blogs that moms write endlessly about how overworked, underpaid, under appreciated.....  they think they are.  I don't want to be one of those blogs.  I understand the struggle that being a Mom is.  I am in the trenches with you.  I understand worry about where money will materialize from....  I am in those trenches with you.....  I understand your fear that you are doing the best you can, but it still isn't enough....  I worry too.  But at the end of the day, what do we dwell on.... the bad or the good?  What do we want our children to see and feel?  A mom always writing about how bad life is, or about every struggle she has?  Or do we want them to see our triumphs and joy after working hard to achieve success?  What is the better legacy to leave our children? What's a better legacy to leave our daughters?

Remember:  GOD IS ALWAYS WITH US.

Now thanks be unto God, which always causeth us to triumph in Christ, and maketh manifest the savour of his knowledge by us in every place.  2 Cor. 2:14